zeptember

For the past week and a half, I’ve been experiencing mittelschmerz and low uterine pain. Today is particularly bad, with the pain sharp enough at times to make me gasp. George is due in 7 days, and I’ve already started premedicating as of today.

My diet has been shitty for the past month, due to rushing and stress. Not only that, but I read that apples and flax seeds/oil have natural estrogens in them, so I stopped eating those things until I could do further research. It seems in that time, the mid-cycle pelvic pain returned, and I caught a cold that I’ve been trying to fight off since about last Thursday. My man also got a cold and by Friday was taken down hard by it. He’s off work Monday and today because he’s coughing so much and his coworkers don’t want him to get them sick. Bleh.
I’ve been taking vitamin C and zinc every day, along with my other vitamins, to fight this off. Today I reintroduced flax and apples into my diet in the hopes that they will assist in fighting off the cold that’s going around (a friend of ours was also sick last week, same symptoms).

I will also be picking up evening primrose oil tonight on the way home, as I’ve never yet applied that remedy.

If I’m a week early, this means I cut it REAL close to the wedding with my next cycle. And I can’t bear to have that happen.

My man has been home sick since Monday from whatever it is that’s going around - another friend also had it, dunno if she’s still sick. I myself have been fighting off this beast since about last Thursday but I fear that as my immune system continues to weaken as it does every month on account of the Endometriosis, I will succumb to the cold/sinus hell that’s going around.

Add to that the fact that I’ve been presenting symptoms of the Endometriosis for a full week and a half, when in past months since surgery, I’d only presented a few days beforehand. So my energy has been low, I’ve had uterine and ovarian pain on and off, sometimes suddenly so sharp that I gasp, and I’ve had PMS cravings pretty badly.

Add to that the fact that when I got out of my car at work today, my lower right back “went” and now it’s giving me sharp pains which radiate towards my pelvis. I didn’t take the baby for her stroller ride up hill both ways this morning, and she was kind enough to go right to sleep in the stroller that I dragged into the house. I hope the rest of the day is mellow.

It is common for my back to go out or for me to get whatever bug is going around right at the time of menses, because the cylons jam my immune system my immune system becomes weak, allowing for infiltration.

And now, my morbid coping humour:
All these years, I gave my illness a personality and a name, and a gender. He looks just like Vyvyan from The Young Ones, and always liked kicking me in the stomach, the little bastard.

But now…now that I know as of this year that telomeres are abnormally long in women with endometriosis and don’t shed like they’re supposed to - they just keep growing and become rogue cells growing outside of the uterus - well that sounds more like a cylon analogy to me than some mean punk kicking me in the stomach for the hell of it. But continuing with the theme, I’d say that since there are many copies of cylons, that the ones inside of me all look like Vyvyan. :p

I started premedicating yesterday with the Motrin (Ibuprofen 600mg) but today feels like a Tylenol 3 day and it’s not even 10am yet.

as seen on IRC:

IEsherpa: the house voted no on the bailout?
nateM3: does that help us?
zept: oh shit
zept: i was just looking for an update a min ago too
IEsherpa: dow jones just dropped 606 points as a result of the vote
zept: holy fuck
IEsherpa: republicans voted yes 65, 133 voted no
IEsherpa: democrats voted yes 140, 95 voted no

Edit: I guess there’s talk of a re-vote, now? Does anyone know if the ‘rule with absolute authority and without consequence’ style verbiage had been stricken from the law? I was trying to go through The Emergency Economic Stabilization Act of 2008 document but the baby woke up so now I hand over the research to you.

Also, the Dow was down 300pts before the vote, dropped another 300 right after the vote, and is now over 700pts down.

This week, the father began handing off the baby to me in the mornings instead of the mother, and that made all the world of difference. The baby cried when daddy left but didn’t freak the fuck out. She settled down within minutes of his departure.

And in a complete turn around from last week, where she wanted nothing to do with me, this week she started out not wanting to be away from my arms for a minute.

By today, she exhibited willingness to be independent, and was able to scoot around on the floor or sit in her exersaucer for minutes on end without crying for me.

I’ve gotten quite the workout from this child, because when she wants to be held, she doesn’t want to just sit in my lap. No, she wants to be held in my arms, facing outwards, while I rock or bounce so she can treat me as her human bouncy swing.

Yesterday she let me use the ergo baby sling, even though it only works for the baby facing my chest. She was okay in it, and my arms got a break. And today she fell asleep in the sling so I could be hands-free during her naps.

Oh and bottle training is coming along awesomely.

Next up - try the sleep training in the crib again so I have a friggin’ break when she naps. Lunch for me this week has been non-existant or super rushed because of the high maintenance child.

We’ll get there. She’s improved leaps and bounds this week.

As if I didn’t already have enough going on in my life right now with taking on a new highly stressful job in its first week and the wedding planning, I was asked at the end of last week if I’d be interested in doing syndicated horoscopes for a company. And then this week I discovered that I had TWO pending astrological report requests - the money’s already been sent and the customers are waiting for their charts.

Instead of issuing refunds and owning up to the fact that I’m overtaxed, I was my usual stubborn self and refused to concede full defeat. Well, as far as the syndication, I said thanks but I just can’t, and it was heartbreaking, because last spring, this was my dream calling - this was what I was after. Ugh.

Anyway, I just finished one report and I’m on to the second one. If it’s not done by tomorrow night, I’m going to be very disappointed in myself, regardless of whether it’s fair of me to punish myself in this way.

Oh, and I’m taking the order page on the astrology site down for awhile.

10:17pm Edit: YAY! I’ve just finished the second chart and uploaded it! Thank [insert deity here] I was smart enough to create massive documentation and cheat sheets when I first started this venture back in April. All I have to do is copy and paste much of the output to the HTML files and fill in the blanks where self-instructed. Were I doing this for my full time job as intended last spring, I’d be able to crank out 3-4 charts a day and get better over time.

Now if I could only figure out how to fine tune this for daily, weekly and monthly horoscopes. At last frustrating try back in March, it was taking me over a month to get out a monthly horoscope for each sign. I have no idea how the pros do that…yet.

And besides, I have a day job again. So the astrology job is on the back burner until I can, over time, learn how to balance both. Right now I’m not trying at it purposefully, but wow, this week was quite the litmus test.

Customers are one thing, syndication for daily, weekly and monthly horoscopes is quite another altogether and would require full time, which I don’t have and won’t have for the foreseeable future.