zeptember

Today is Day 3 of george, and Day 2 of the heavy bleeding.

Today, 1mg is no longer enough to stop the pain.

Monday night I went through a total of two Dilaudid pills, so that’s a total of 2mg in one day.

Tuesday, I woke up in screaming pain and went right for the Dilaudid. I was able to take only an Ibuprofen600 in the afternoon, and that was enough to silence the cramps. The cramps came back around 11pm, so I took a Dilaudid just so I’d be knocked out for the night. So in all, I took a total of two Dilaudid pills, which again is a total of 2mg in one day.

Today, it’s not even 2pm and I’m on my second Dilaudid pill because the pain came through the first one.

And when I say “pain”, it’s such a subjective, generic word. It can’t possibly even come near what I’m really feeling.

“Pain” doesn’t convey to you the level of pain that I’m feeling.

My latest phrase since December to describe the pain has been that someone’s hooked up a rusty tow claw or chain to my uterus, and now they’re slowly trying to pull everything out of me.

I hope that’s enough to suffice when I say “I’m in pain”.