zeptember

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been seeing billboards and online photo advertisements for the new “World Trade Center” movie. And each time my eyes glimpse the image, my heart drops and my stomach knots and I feel a lump in my throat.

I’m not ready for this.

And then, there was today’s news of the Brits exposing a terror threat that was due to unfold in a matter of days. They’ve conducted overnight raids and arrested over 20 individuals who were involved in a plot to bomb transatlantic flights.

The major corporate networks have been near hysterics in their repeated coverage of this news. Their voices are pitched and anxious. National Public Radio on the other hand sounds as calm and rational as ever, but still reports from the same sources.

And there’s the corporate online media outlets, also at fever pitch. To quote my friend Jace, “You know CNN is near hysterics when their font is larger than 36 point.”

Waking up to this news this morning, combined with the ads for the movie coming out, I was near tears all day.
Well, that was probably also combined with my current depression, but I was very rattled all day today regardless, and the trigger today was the goddamned news.

So this evening, I ranted with friends online, and sought out further dialogue from sources such as americablog and billmon.

Now I feel a little bit better, and still a little bit like looking up warily at the sky, wondering if it is going to fall.